Krissie: Rainy Day

Good day yesterday. When Erin and Alex were over on Thursday I’d said I’d be happy to pick him up after school etc., and she said Friday might be a possibility though her sister was lined up to do it. But it was simply a possibility, and when she told Alex yesterday morning that her sister would be picking her up he said “but you said Grandma Krissie could do it!” Heh heh. So I got him yesterday too.
Had a grumpy moment with Richie before I went off to write, but called him back and apologized for my half of it. He said the wrong thing at the wrong time, but I reacted badly.
Which is why we’re so happy together. When either of us screws up we take responsibility.
So I went off and got a little accomplished, then took my mother out while I went to mail off a package of stuff to my son. Realized there wasn’t time, took her out to lunch. She wanted a Dunkin Donuts breakfast sandwich (she didn’t want to get out of the car for a restaurant) so I went to Subway and got a healthy one for me first and we sat and ate. Picked up Alex, treated them both to creamees (soft serve ice cream) and then dropped her off.
Fell asleep at 6:30. I just couldn’t keep my eyes open. I think the stress was taking its toll on me and I’m catching up.
So. Today.
I think it’s a decluttering/cleaning day. Oh, and a sewing day. I’ve been dying to sew since I was in Ohio (though I left the gorgeous material I bought behind — quelle idiote!) But I have plenty of projects to work on, and that will be fun.
Funny that spending the day decluttering feels like self-indulgence. Funny how I suddenly feel anxiety creeping in.
As for the food, just doing my best. Working on just holding my own while I slowly get my life back in order. The breakup of a 4 year relationship, of a family that was so dear to me, is hard, harder than many things people usually have to go through. It’s not a momentary disappointment or a fight with your husband. So I need a little time.
But ordering my household, or working on it, will be in lieu of ordering my family.
Now if I were Queen of the Universe …

18 thoughts on “Krissie: Rainy Day

  1. You are the Queen of the Universe. You just have to claim it, but think of the responsibility. Maybe just be Princess of the Universe. That way you can give the really big problems to the Queen and wash your hands of it.

  2. Eh, I’m just a lady-in-waiting, or a scullery maid. Oh, I know I’ll be the polisher-of-the-crown and go prepare it for you Krissie, Queen of the Universe.

    So glad you had a good time with Alex. Play some loud music and sing along while you declutter and stamp out the anxious thoughts. Think of it as an adventure. ; )

  3. I’m doing some housecleaning and moving warm/cold clothes around in my narrow, long slither-in closet (you can’t actually walk into it, unless you turn sideways and slither). Just whacked my head on the door. I recommend that you don’t do this 🙂

    But declutter/rearrange is good. I’m playing a new CD I just got The Masterson’s Birds Fly South. Highly recommended for rainy day cleaning.

  4. Soooo glad things are working out for you and Alex.

    Tell the anxiety to take a flying leap and make sure you do treat yourself to some sewing. {{{HUGS}}} for a nice relaxing day.

  5. It’s so easy to forget that a divorce doesn’t effect just the couple involved. Of course you are also experiencing loss — good for you for seeing it. I don’t know if it’s my own oddity but when I grieve, I clean. The evening after my mother’s funeral, I spent hours cleaning our upstairs. My husband sat downstairs with the kids and said, “Don’t ask.” It was definitely a little compulsive but it also felt like taking back a little corner of the universe and saying, “I can establish my own order here.”

    And sewing. It it weren’t for fiction and fabric, I don’t know how I’d get through life.

  6. Jenny says:

    I have the fabric in a box for you with your pajamas. I’m still picking things up and I’m thinking I’ll find more of your stuff (although I ate your cheese so you’re not getting that back). I’ll make Lani make me get it in the mail on Monday.

    You look great in yellow, by the way.

    • Kelly S says:

      You could save a step and just have Lani put it in the mail. Or save an extra step and have Alastair put it in the mail.

  7. Stephanie says:

    Clearing things out helps us feel some control. I’d say there’s not much of that feeling I your life right now so holding onto what you can is very helpful. I hope it’s a great day.

  8. Lynda says:

    I’m glad you and Richie are able to talk and take responsibility for your disagreements. That is indeed one of the great secrets to a happy marriage. It’s amazing how many people never figure that out.

    • Argh…Internet. As I was saying, I’m so happy that things are working out for you with Alex. Keep up the decluttering…and clearly you are a queen, so use your royal powers for good 🙂

  9. Melanie says:

    Let yourself sleep! You need it, obviously. I think sometimes you need to just let yourself veg out a little. I know that getting things done is huge, and necessary, just wanted to say that you don’t have to be productive every minute of every day, or even, every day. Maybe you should give yourself a YOU day, at least one a week, where you don’t have to accomplish anything because you should, but only do things because you want to. That’s still 6 days on! Every week!

  10. Micki says:

    Maybe you do the reordering of the environment in lieu of reordering your family . . . but you also do it to create an environment where when happy times come, you aren’t stumbling over stuff. Rainy days are a good day to recharge, and there’s more than one way to do that . . . . (-: Glad to hear you and Alex are still getting some GM/GKid time.

  11. Kate says:

    You have no idea who I am because I’ve never commented before (I’m a total lurker) but something came up in another part of my life that’s relevant to your decluttering efforts. My godsister found a blog that has made her life, no exaggeration, she’s ecstatic. It’s blog that uses a combination of encouragement and bullying to help people to keep their space clean, because everyone is awesome and deserves an environment that is live-able and enjoyable no matter what their situation is. The success stories are particularly inspiring. They have tips too!
    If nothing else love it for the name…
    http://unfuckyourhabitat.tumblr.com/

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