That’s my earnest look.
I have so freaking much work to do, so many things I have to do, so many things I want to do. Revisions on an old book, writing on a new one, swimming, working on finances, finishing up the AG (American Girl) outfit I’m sewing (in honor of K-dramas, which I’ve been watching, I’m making her a … forget the terms. Anyway a traditional Korean outfit – pictures later). Plus, I have an appointment with my therapist.
And you know what I’m going to do? Blow off everything. It’s an exquisite day – warm and bright and sunny. We got more than a foot of snow on Friday and Saturday, we’re getting snow and freezing rain tomorrow, and the rest of the week is cold, heavy rain. So I’m going out!
Sometimes you just need a day off. All those things that are calling to me will still be around, tomorrow, and a week of cold, nasty rain is an excellent time to do most of those things. Once the snow and freezing rain stops I can easily drive to swimming, and I can do all the other stuff under lots of electric light because it’s dark, dark, dark.
The big trick is kicking away the guilt. Except I’m not too big on guilt (though in recent years I’ve realized I have more than I thought, even though I’m an absolute saint). I’ve gotta kick away the longing to be doing those other things. Emma and Brandon are about to have sex. (Everyday I write they get closer and closer to it, but stuff keeps happening). I adore the old book I’m revising, and want to see it through. And I’m enjoying working on getting our financial house in order, now that we’ve figured out a way to do it (or at least work on it). And of course I always need therapy – even though I haven’t been depressed in more than a year it doesn’t mean it won’t circle round and hit me again.
But, just for today, girls just wanna have fun.
I know you all have made the decision to do the same thing. What do you usually do? All my friends have pretty much moved away, and Richie wants to do stuff outside as the long winter winds down. I’m going shopping – for food and some sewing stuff – and having lunch at Panera. They don’t even have movie matinees closer than 65 miles. Any suggestions for ways to have fun when you just want to go out and play? No museums nearby. I do live deep in the country.
Anyway, tomorrow I’ll be taking care of all those other things. Today I play.
What’s on your agenda? Work or play? A balanced mixture of both? I think everyone should take one week off this week to celebrate what might be spring (iffy in Northern VT). Plus, it’ll make me feel less guilty.